Tuesday, June 29, 2010

It's Okay to Cry

A couple of weeks ago, I was driving my friend to the airport. I prayed for her in the car on the way there. She said a prayer for me too, something about taking every worry to the Lord. I wanted to cry. I started to, but I held back the tears.

Later that day I met another friend at Starbucks inside of Barnes and Noble. She got two books off the shelf. One of them was called "His Princess - Love Letters from Your King" by Sheri Rose Shepherd. She randomly opened it to the page that was titled, "My Princess, IT'S OKAY TO CRY".

I began reading the page but I could barely read it. My eyes were producing tears no matter how hard I tried to stop them. I try not to cry in public. I told her I couldn't read it very well because it was making me cry. Well, my sweet friend ending up surprising me and buying me the book. She asked me if I knew where the restrooms were, I pointed in the direction, and she came back several minutes later with the book and a written message to me in the cover.

On my way home I was talking to God. I realized there were some things I felt hurt about that I was trying to figure out on my own. I probably had said a quick prayer about them, but I was not talking to God like He was my best friend. And that is what I needed to do.

When I got home, I read the page from the book she had opened it to. This is what it said....

"I see how hard you try to handle your heart, and I know you want to live a life without heartaches or pain. I'm asking you to take a step closer to your Father in heaven by crying out to Me when you hurt. Let me heal you. Remember My chosen, King David? He cried out to Me in his fears, disappointments, and sin, and I answered. You are also My chosen one, and you are My daughter...so it's okay to cry. I don't expect you to pretend that pain is not real. It is truth and tears that will give you the freedom that I want you to know. Now let go of that part of your heart the only I can heal. Let your heavenly Daddy hold you while you cry.


Your King who wipes away your tears


God really spoke to my heart through those words. I cried out to Him about things that were bothering me, even yelling at Him part of the time. By the time I was done reading that and crying out to God, I had about 20-30 crumpled up, half wet kleenex next to me on the bed. David walked into the room to check on me and knew I was having time with God. I thought it was sweet that he shut the door right away because he didn't want to interrupt a precious time I was having.

I felt so much better after I really opened up my heart to God to let Him heal me. And I experienced an awesome freedom I hadn't felt in a long time. Prior to my intimate time with God, I thought I needed circumstances changed to heal me or I needed David to heal me. But really, I came to find out that all I needed was God. He alone is more than enough.

A picture of the book.

Friday, June 18, 2010


I am so excited and so thankful for all the ways that God encouraged us within the last week.

We have a great big dream. We feel God has led us to the idea of it. But we often get discouraged. Life is easier just to work full time regular jobs with great pay and great benefits. Easier, yes. But I guess easiest path is not usually God's will.

We plan to take some big life steps in the next year, some people would call them risks. Some people may call us crazy.

Last week sometime, we prayed. We prayed something like, "God please encourage us if we are on the right path and if we heard you right and please warn us if we are not."

Since last Friday, exactly a week ago, several awesome things have happened. Some little, some big, but all an encouragement to go forward with this dream. And even reminding us that the dream came from Him.

I would rather have my life be an adventure of taking steps, even risks, when we feel God's guidance than live an ordinary, easy life with no risks.

So, here is one of the little encouragements that happened: At church on Sunday I was feeling confident that this dream in our hearts is from God. When I went to grab my purse off of the floor, I noticed a little silver charm right by my purse that said "LIVE THE DREAM", with a little heart.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Bold, Bright and Beautiful

There was a Gerber daisy sale at Hy-Vee 2 weeks ago so I brightened up our house with some fresh flowers. The white one was 5.5 inches in diameter, the red one 5. I got the ruler out and measured them because I couldn't believe how big they were. The picture was taken on our front porch.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Annoying Weeds Turned to Beautiful Wildflowers

We had many weeds in our yard. My husband was sad about all the weeds. I had an idea to cheer him up. I made some cute bouquets out of the flowering part of some of the weeds and put them in our kitchen window sill and dining room table to surprise him. It actually made the weeds look cute. He loved it and I think it made him less stressed about the weeds.

It may take a little creativity, but I think you can turn almost any bad or annoying thing into something good.

Tiny bouquets. Each vase is only about 2 inches tall.

Cute, & fluffy wildflowers.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Hearts In My Noodles

Lately, I feel like I have been hurrying through life. I feel like I have so many things to get done all of the time. I have a never-ending "to do" list. It seems like the list just keeps getting bigger and there isn't enough time in the day to do all I want to do. This morning I was sitting on the front porch and I noticed several bunnies running around playing. I was so thankful I had allowed myself some time to relax and enjoy nature. I also thought of how I haven't seen any random hearts lately, (I wrote about random hearts in a previous blog). So today, decided that life is too precious to be in a hurry. If I don't get certain things done, maybe they were never meant to get done.

When I was eating lunch today I noticed a heart in my Ramen Noodles. I think it was just a spice (since it was chili flavored noodles) but it made a heart shape. It made me so happy! So, I hope to not rush through life to be able to enjoy it more, and maybe then I will notice more amazing things like hearts in my noodles. :)

Here's a picture of my noodles for lunch with the heart just how I found it.

Here is a zoom in of the heart. Isn't it cute?